May 13, 2009

by English Muse

sunset plaza

It’s hot and sticky out today, one of those days in Los Angeles when the sky has turned blue-grey mixed with patches of vanilla (In other words: fog mixed with smog.) I’m so tired I feel jet lagged. My dad had a relapse on Monday and was readmitted to the hospital. I spent the night there on a lumpy cot last night — the longest night ever! It makes him happy when I blog (and show him the pictures). So I’m blogging like crazy. You spend your life knowing that your parents will get sick someday with something that can’t be cured. I’m just not ready for this to be the day….

sunset plaza

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35 Responses to “Hot Vanilla Sky”

  1. Dionne says:

    I am sorry to hear about your Dad! I will keep him in my prayers.

    I love how you make the LA smog sound pretty by calling it vanilla, lol.

  2. Tina says:

    oh thank you!! we have a joke in LA that we like to see the air with breathe….

  3. Beatriz Kim says:

    I’m so sorry to hear that he has relapsed! I wish him a speedy recovery and a healthier return home!

    I want to send him a virtual flower! I hope that he enjoys it. I just processed it and it comes in a variety of colors. I wanted to pick the one that seems happy!

    The link:
    [http://www.flickr.com/photos/artbybeatriz/3527947428/sizes/o/in/set-72157617852412110/]

    Have a lovely day!

  4. LENORENEVERMORE says:

    So sorry to hear this Tina…may peace be with you at moments like this…Pray & hope for the best- whatever that is darling~

  5. Ali says:

    Thinking about you and your father.

  6. Caroline @ patagonia gifts says:

    oh I’m really sorry about your dad, darling. hope you’re doing well… much love :)

  7. JGregg says:

    Tina — when my mom had a stroke at only 62, I freaked. After that first big set back, things sort of get easier to handle, but never “easy.” Hoping all the best for your dad and your family, Tina.

    Jg.

  8. Tina says:

    Oh thank you!

    Ms. Beatriz Kim, he’ll love the flower!

  9. Daisy says:

    I shall keep you and your dad in my prayers! the pictures are beautiful!

  10. The Cottage Cheese says:

    Oh no! I am so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Tina. Your Dad must be a super-special guy because look what a wonderful daughter he raised!

  11. Little Gray Pixel says:

    You and your dad are in my thoughts…

  12. Char says:

    I will be thinking of you and your father and sending warm thoughts. xo

    hope he recovers soon.

  13. Brian Miller says:

    sorry to hear about your dad. don’t know if we are ever ready for that day. will keep you in our thoughts.

    nice pics…vanilla indeed!

  14. STORY says:

    I thought you were uncharacteristically quiet, so came looking for you! Sorry for the relapse. Hi Pop! In case you dad gets to read these emails – thought I would throw that in.
    Guess what? I just bought a little Holga camera! Wont arrive for awhile but am planning a fun photo shoot.
    Take good care Tina and the Popster.
    xxoo Laurie

  15. Kay says:

    I love the title of this…vanilla sky…what a great observation and take on something otherwise bleak.

    Sorry about your dad; that is a very tough thing to go through…

  16. The Bliss Journey says:

    I’m sorry for everything that is happening right now. I know how scary it can be. I don’t think we are ever ready to see our parents failing. You and your Dad will be in my thoughts and prayers. A big hug is being sent your way for both you and your Dad.
    Kathleen

  17. virginia says:

    so many of us have been there…hope his situation improves.

    the internet is a great diversion when sleep-deprived and unable to focus.

    here’s something new to pass the time…she created design*sponge’s website:
    http://www.book-by-its-cover.com/
    and, wonderful color: http://www.takashiiwasaki.info/takashiiwasaki/english/embroidery.html

  18. Tina says:

    I love you guys. thank you so much for your kind comments and support. i’ve been trying to be optimistic but tonight i’m so down.

  19. Jen says:

    Dear Tina,
    So sorry to hear about your dad. How sad. Its true its hard to imagine letting go of one’s beloved parents.
    But in a sense they are always with you – no matter what. Hang in there.

    Sweet thoughts and prayers for you all. Love the imagery.

  20. automatism says:

    So sorry to hear this, Tina — I hope your Dad is up and around again really soon. Sending lots of good vibes your way! In the meantime, stay focused on the positive — because this too shall pass.

    Take care
    Lori

  21. Jen Zahigian says:

    Keep your chin up little lady. It’s Ok to feel down for a while. You clearly see much beauty in the world, so rest assured that ‘up’ will come again soon. Love to you and your Dad…
    Jen

  22. parlezvouskiwi says:

    It’s true what you say that we all expect our parents to get sick someday but when it happens, it doesnt make it any easier. When my mother was sick with the “C” word I thought it was a death sentence. BUT she has now in recovery and has been for 5 years. Im sending all of my good wishes, positive thoughts and love to you and your family.

  23. Tina Tarnoff says:

    Oh, no, dearest Tina, I’m so sorry he had a relapse. In situations like this, I’ve learned that most important thing is to avoid negative thoughts, despair and sadness. Your dad will be all right and that is how you should think – and most importantly believe. And that will help his recovery. And, you shoud know that all of us, your faithfull readers, are sending good vibes your father’s way. And that’s at least 1500 of us! That is a lot of good vibes!!! Give my love to your dad, and I agree with one of the comments above, he must be a fabulous man because he raised you, lovely! Much love, Tina! xoxox

  24. Tina says:

    thank you…if it were not for your lovely comments, I would have fallen into complete despair by now.

  25. The Sice Family says:

    Sorry to hear about your Dad. It is a horrible feeling when our ‘rock’ gets sick. Take ‘Valerian’ tablets to help you through the low feelings. They are only herbal, but help to calm.
    Keep blogging, we all enjoy it too. Write a list of twenty things that you love about your dad, or what you are thankful to him for bringing to your life, and give it to him TODAY! Before anything else happens. And then, at least you have let him know all those little impacts he has had on your life. Tell him you want to be able to write twenty more one day, so he needs to stick around! At least you would have had a moment of depth together, if things were to get worse. Take care…pray. xxx

  26. SHOKOOFEH says:

    my dear Tina, I pray for your father deep in my heart… because I know what’s your feeling. because I feel what you know… because I am spending my life with that feeling you mentioned… because we CAN ask God for happy things! :)


    xo

  27. farmhouse wares says:

    I’m so sorry about your dad. I think it is beautiful that he finds solace in your blog. We all do.

  28. laydeedancer says:

    Tina, I am so sorry to hear about your dad. My own father’s health has been precarious for almost 15 years. I have learned that it’s sometimes beneficial to go ahead and have a good cry, feel sorry for yourself, be mad at the world and once you have done that and there are no more tears to cry, pick yourself up and tackle the day. Life can be short, too short…make each day with your dad count. Hug him and tell him you love him and make him giggle and pass the time.
    Chin up, young person.
    -Jessica

  29. BakerGirl says:

    I’m sorry to hear about your Dad, I hope he pulls through.

    I just unexpectdly lost my grandfather on friday… It’s not something you can prepare for.

  30. P. says:

    Thinking of you and your dear dad (and sharing many the same thoughts about my own father, to whom I am also devoted). Take care of yourself. The blog is as beautiful as ever.

    xoxox from New York.

  31. Helen says:

    Hang in there, lady. Thinking of you and your dad. xoxox

  32. The Wanderers' Daughter says:

    Oh, Tina. I’m so sorry…this has to be so hard. NOne of us is ready for it to be that day, ever. My mother has had cancer twice in her life and survived both. But I was very young the first time, so I have always known that that eventuality hung in the air. I have always held her to me extra-tight in my heart because of it.

  33. giulia says:

    Hi sweetie. I'm not giving any advice. Thinking about this & others. Let us know what sorts of things your dad likes (like the flowers) & one thing I can do, for instance, is search for great images, paintings, & such. And then post them for him (on either blog). Your dad is an artist, yes? What's his thing(s)? Going out later for dental repair-torture (I am not kidding), but will check subscribe to the comment follow-ups.

    MOLTI GRANDE BACINI, Bella Tina!

  34. boubou says:

    Hello !
    Just to say that it’s a pleasure to visit your blog :))You inspire me a lot !

    a très bientot !!

    Boubou xx

  35. emily.loves.bryan says:

    Wish your father a speedy recovery.

    xx

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