It’s raining tonight in Los Angeles and I’m trying to keep my spirits up. I snapped a few pictures of my latest decor finds: A 1950s ashtray, a colorful vintage Balinese screen, a black and white poster of a grandfather clock (with an actual clock that runs on a AA battery), more books to stuff into my giant pine armoire.
Decorating our new apartment has become my respite. Maybe it’s because it’s the one area of my life that I can control. I know this is going to sound very dreary, but I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed by uncertainty and sorrow. Not exactly good fodder for an inspiration blog, that’s for sure.
Last summer, my dad was diagnosed as having a serious bone marrow disease. (I took some time off work to take care of him. Even though I now believe it made me an easy layoff target, I would not trade the time I spent with him for the world.)
This week doctors confirmed what we’ve feared for several weeks: my father now has leukemia and the prognosis is not good. He is skin and bones.
One of my well-meaning blogger friends sent me a long email this week lecturing me about my low morale. Yes, my morale is bad. This is my year of loss, I guess.
So I have a request: Does anyone out there want to guest blog here for a few weeks while I sort things out? Email me if you do Posts with photos of funky flea market finds are always welcome here…
UPDATE: My friend Liss at the gorgeous blog Daydream Lily has generously offered to keep things running here at the English Muse. Liss (who has been nominated for a 2010 Cosmo Woman of the Year award!) will be posting, with occasional cameos from other talented bloggers. Thank you so much for helping me out during this very difficult time! I love you. Tina